Saturday, June 22, 2013

CXLIII - naoko

the cranberries, linger
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6Kspj3OO0s

you are naoko in my obscure moments.

"... but you always really knew, i just wanna be with you..."

Thursday, May 23, 2013

CXLII - mayhaps, mayhaps.

張學友, 真情流露
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZStoR9wYiNs

today as i crossed the road to my workplace, i looked up at the sky and realised that i was alright.

something had been taken out of me, but there was nothing that needed to be made good.

i suppose that's what life is... every little day, every little thing, with every little step. good or bad, every little little.

did nothing really need to be made good? maybe, mayhaps.

last sunday as little coby snuggled in my arms, i felt all was right. i suppose family does that.

one moves on as one does. just like in forrest gump... peas and carrots, peas and carrots.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

CXLI - it's pretty hard

陳慧琳, 誰願放手
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OhD5nEnf2g

來這年這一天這地 
重見曾似相識的你
笑得輕鬆中帶傷悲

談你談我的新趣味 
無法忘記當天的美
你的關心不過演戲

Saturday, May 11, 2013

CXL - okay. okay.

"maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but soon, and for the rest of your life... we'll always have paris..."

this is the aftermath.

i now know that i do not and never will need another person's sympathy, no matter how desolate. this is fair. many are unconsoled in this world.

in my weakness i put to myself some consolations as i imagined receiving them. that is far enough. every day i used another thing, myself. so be it. nights i spoke to dead men. that much is also true.

this is a new day.

i have struggled to uphold a destiny i believed in. that was certainly foolish, but fools have a place in my world. i have fought well, and lost well. i am not a lesser man. that is sufficient.

mark it as a new day.

God willing.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

CXXXIX - no tears

michael stipes, in the sun
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ix77YY2ggjg&t=1m28s

you will haunt me in my obscure moments.

i think that is the best that can be done.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Sunday, May 5, 2013

CXXXVII - of all the gin joints...

as i rounded the corner and it hit me i thought, you've got to be joking.

a dream that makes you depressed when you wake up is basically a nightmare.

dazed, lifeless, now the sound of a man losing something. something like a destiny. or one he believed in. no difference, i guess.

no... you've got to be joking. oh, hi. yes, hi. my friend's having a birthday here, inside. no, don't bother. alright, see you.

pooushhhfft. can't really function.

saturday. dinner. i can't think of more than one we had.

i thought about it. maybe it wasn't destined. maybe someone else was better than me, for you. but that was rough.

boy. i think i owe it to myself to have a few drinks.

"... i remember every detail. the germans wore grey. you wore blue."