song of the week: rolling stones, wild horses
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhVLiHPUOIM
i've come to realise, from thinking deep and hard about my last post, and the tone that it was written in, that i am too critical of people. i think that's what makes me a difficult person to always be around. now i... i think i try and make people better, but maybe i make it hard on people. and i think i balance being friendly and kind with my demanding nature pretty well, but i figure it is a bit much. haha, sigh. i suppose people do like the friendly ian rather than the tough ian. there's both sides of it, and it takes awhile to see both from me. i always think, see, that i can be like that because i... i mean well and all. and i've done enough to be trustworthy, and be a sort of good example. i generally try my best to be ian and i don't really make apologies for it, but i guess i really am, well, judgmental, in the non-discriminatory sense of the word. well, so much for that, i do think i'll try and be a lot less like that now.
boy this song is awesome.
i'd rather lose badly than lose well, to be honest. it felt like... there was something in me that i didn't give. not getting fired up... made me feel necessarily detached. i wonder if the boys understand. but they weren't good enough, so that's that. yeah, we lost well. pats on the back, lads.
school lately hasn't been too interesting. the texts and cases haven't done their magic, they kinda don't seem interesting. oh well. hope it gets better (i mean, i'll try a bit harder).
you know, life is really funny sometimes. i thought, school has no real cute girls this sem. and next thing, what do you know. cute girls everywhere. popping out of the woodwork. gonna be tough to... concentrate, and stuff.
keep it real.
