Saturday, November 21, 2009

X ian on guitar stuff, epi. 2 - best 170 dollars i've ever spent

november 2004 - present, $170, aria AF-25 acoustic guitar, black


i have sort of hazy memories of why i wanted to get a guitar. i just up and got it, i think. just one fine sunny day, in j1, made up my mind to learn to play the guitar.

hmm... childhood memories. let's see.

i've obviously heard people play the guitar before, in church, on tv, etc. never really listened to music much, got my first cd player when i was sec two, i think, and the first cd i ever ever bought was u2's all that you can't leave behind. without anyone's recommendation. i'm damn proud of myself right now. bono's voice was so strong and calling and mysterious, and the edge's guitar was so emo, so fantastic. so that was when i really started to listen to music, thank God. narrowly missed the tween pop rubbish.

but i've never really really really wanted to play the guitar. my dad and mom used to play deep purple damn loud, i mean Damn Loud, like downstairs can hear from my house loud. strange people! and i was quite unaffected by the loud riffs and the strong wailing singing and the percussive drum beats. it was just noise to me. like as a child you wonder, why do grown up people gotta do things so loudly? but that was then, when music meant little to me.

oh my mom signed me up for piano with my sis when i was young. but i stopped after one lesson. i couldn't give a shit about it, even back then (lol!), and couldn't at all be bothered to find a note on the keyboard, like the first lesson was about. incredible, come to think of it, that my sis was forced to learn and i wasn't. *shrug* i actually bought a yamaha clp-810 digital piano for $165 three months back, what september 2009? but that's a story for another time.

so, memories, hmm. nope, really. no recollection of musical influence, encouragement or inspiration in my childhood. except for the odd musical toy (you know the kind that runs around playing a midi of i forgot what tune, i can hum it but God knows what song it is [Llorando Se Fue omg], and a digital keyboard my grandpa bought for us once, that ran on 6, or was it 8, count em' 6 C size batteries, that played a midi of Billy Joel's Just the Way You Are). i hated the karoake, i always thought it sounded damn phony to be singing about everlasting love when my family was having its difficulties (well which one doesn't, right), and i just didn't sing much, other than the anthem and school song and various p5 chinese songs at gep camp (gep camp!) and the blimming beautiful ac song. i always used to get goosebumps when the school sang that song. and be Thou my vision. and to God be the glory. God bless acs. acsi, mind you. oh... ac primary too.

so, indifferent, indifferent, okay. why not give it a shot. cheap, right, hundred odd bucks, learn a few songs, tickle a few girls. Ha! that really worked out! as if. anyway, j1, nothing to do, called up some old friends, jonk and jonlin, and went to ranking at bras basah, picked out an el cheapo black guitar, went home none the wiser.

i'm chuckling as i write this. God i'm an old man.

hmm. couldn't quite get my fingers in their right spots, couldn't really make the notes strum out, couldn't change the chords to save my life! string noise, bad technique, fingers touching where they shouldn't, not getting the terminology right, (up was right and down was left, goodness!), memorising Eddie Ate Dynamite Good Bye Eddie, tuning, rusty strings, fingers hurting after like ten minutes (pussyyy), oh Lord my rhythm was so bad! i couldn't get a rhythm going to save my life, man. bass strings, then treble strings... huh? strum with wrist or forearm? holding the pick felt funny, cranking my wrist to reach the frets, hand muscles Really Really tired, arm too, man i was useless. utterly useless. first song i tried to learn was urh stairway to heaven, i think. that took damn damn long, the first part, starting with the hand at the fifth fret (yeah you know that one). oh no! the first song jonk taught me was i could sing of Your love forever. it was easy, e shape chord, 2nd, 4th, 7th, 9th frets. goodness. the first what six weeks i went absolutely nowhere.

and then i learnt a strumming pattern. who was it that taught me down, down-up, up-down. goodness i think it was chris teo. and he passed me a brown fender pick, which i still have now. those shitty pick-this-pick picks kept breaking. Shitty picks. anyway, with that one rhythm, my whole guitar playing experience changed. that was definitely my first level up. i broke into a giant ass hugest grin that i have in my collection of expressions grin. exciting times, man, exciting times to be young. i played some easy worship song with that, and i was there. ding! a level 2 guitar noob.

i'll admit there's never really been a high like that on my acoustic ever since that first rhythm. there's been ups and downs lar. as far as acoustic rhythm goes, i can strum, maybe a little bit of improvised strumming, but the real rhythmey stuff i've yet to scratch, i'll admit. the bluesy robert j stuff? the neat stuff pastor dave showed us that time? slappin' n poppin'? whatever, man. in my defence i think that it's hard to improvise when you're not getting great tone, as when you have a crappy guitar. but that's a shitty excuse. obviously, and i one hundred percent believe this, it's in the hands. but tone really makes you wanna play, it does.


and i'm not real good on funny chords, like the inversions, and the added 5ths and different root notes and what have you. i think that's definitely something i have to work on right now, those chord inversions. but like i said, when it doesn't sound good on a crappy guitar, then it's unlikely you really wanna try it. shitty stuff makes you work harder on technique, but less inspired to. but like i always say, if it were easy, everyone would do it.

so, this guitar then. her name is milady, but i'm not real big on that. and this is where it all started.

ah well, moving on then. introducing in the next episode, my first electric guitar. stay tuned!

IX ian on guitar stuff, epi. 1 - for pete's sake, man!

gas list 2

jim dunlop blue jimi hendrix fuzz/ monsterpiece npn fuzz

updates 2

dec 2010 - present, $20, behringer digital reverb 100
dec 2010 - present, $90, installed those lindy fralins, misc. adjustments
jan 2011 - present, $130, dunlop 535q crybaby wah
feb 2011 - present, $35, beta aivin noise gate 100
feb 2011 - present, $150, mi-audio tube zone

updates

february 2010 - present, $1500, 01' gibson les paul standard, cherry sunburst
february 2010 - present, $175, lindy fralin single coil pickups, white
march 2010 - present, $200, boss dd7 digital delay

presenting, all the precious guitar stuff i've ever bought.

november 2004 - present, $170, aria AF-25 acoustic guitar, black
july 2005 - mid 2006, $220, craftsman gs-200 les paul copy, flame maple electric guitar, -$180
july 2005 - november 2009, $110, marshall mg 15-cdr, clean/ overdrive 15W solid state amp, -$90
august 2005 - may 2009, $104, marshall jackhammer jh-1, overdrive/ distortion pedal, -$20
mid 2006 - may 2009, $250, epiphone sg special, black electric guitar, -$220
mid 2007 - jan 2011, $170, morley pwov, wah/volume pedal, -$80
early 2009 - present, $60, yamaha cg-131s, classical guitar
june 2009 - present, $1150, '91 fender american standard stratocaster, gun-metal blue electric guitar
july 2009 - present, $140, mi audio crunchbox (v1), distortion pedal
august 2009 - present, $175, om labs sahasrara (v1), overdrive pedal
august 2009 - present, borrowed, moen mo-pd, delay pedal
october 2009 - present, $75, misse mp1, pedalboard
october 2009 - present, $20, johnson mini amp, clean 4W solid state amp
october 2009 - present, $35, behringer v-tone gdi21, amp simulator/ direct input box
october 2009 - present, $40, onespot power adaptor with daisy chain
october 2009 - present, $35, behringer eq700, graphic equaliser pedal
november 2009 - present, $380, epiphone valve junior with tubejuice attenuator, clean 5W tube amp
miscellaneous - guitar repair, strings, capos, tuners, picks, fret polish, zorb-it dehumidifier, guitar cables, batteries, studio costs

damn, i've spent around $3K on guitars and friggin' what to show for it!
but i think the re-sale value of the stuff i have is about 2.5K, which is alright.
hopefully it appreciates in value! lol. i'm sure the strat would... in about 30 years. :D

buying stuff is really fun. soft is a great website to troll and learn from. and with the volume of buy/ sell there there's all sorts of stuff to get. researching and reading reviews is pretty fascinating. then imagining, then deciding, then spotting, then bargaining, then meeting, then testing, then taking home. without this second hand market i think i'd be buying stuff at like 1/10th the pace i do now, and what a pity that'd be! :P

next in this series - precious memories about the stuff. stay tuned! :)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

VIII - begrudgingly

i always ask this question of myself, i always ask this question
how much more patience do i need
and the inevitably inescapable answer, the conclusion i always reach
is, still more, my boy, still more

and i know i have to wait

incredible! ridiculous!
still more? still more?
what else could i need?
me! really! of all people!

decidedly, unerringly
that much more, so much more.

nothing so certain as death and taxes and
this god damn patience i need to learn

Monday, November 9, 2009

VII - a more general peace, spare me the details

tan cheng han was right. your brain thinks about things even when you're not thinking only about them. this subconscious thinking is some damn powerful shit, imo. i wish him all the best. i don't know anyone more serene and polite (from afar) than this dean. only a wen juin could compare favourably with him.

let's cut to the chase, shall we.

here are the interests that have been dancing around in my mind. are these competing interests? yes and no. but that's uncontroversial, at least to me. ironic but true. anyway, in no order of preference (don't want to order if i don't have to),

1) to get a girlfriend
2) to honour God
3) to be patient
4) to study hard
5) to enjoy my life like hell

i have in my mind some intentions. something stronger than attraction, than fondness, than say, i like so-and-so. this is the second time i've ever got to this point, i think. maybe the first time was stronger, ah hell, that one was almost it. but let's not talk about that.

so i asked God, as i asked Him the last time, yes or no? and i think the last time He said No. i might have heard a Not Yet, but right now i suppose it's a Not This One. and i told Him i'd rather You didn't let me feel all these things if the answer was going to be a No. and i suppose that's what happened, for a while. but it's my fault i feel these things, so no biggie. i suppose i just want to gripe. that's fair, eh Old Man? :) i love You, Man.

so this time, i asked the same question. i said, God, if it's going to be a No, just tell me now, and i'll accept it. i'll even love You for it. ha, as if that would change. anyway, i said, just let me know, and i'll never doubt it.

and today as i was riding home from school, i thought to myself, i don't want any girl, i don't want to want any girl, i want a girl that wants me as much as i want her. i mean, what's the point of having a girl that you want more than she wants you? therefore... what's the point of trying so hard to get a girl you think you want, when what you want is for a girl to honestly let you know that she wants you?

i'll try to flesh it out a bit more. what i mean is this. i don't want to want a girl that doesn't want me, and i also don't want to get the girl i want that doesn't really want me. therefore there should be some wanting of this girl of me to begin with. like i've heard, and have come to believe, there has to be some physical (or other) attraction before one really begins to consider another as a good friend, better friend, so on and so forth. i'd say, even more so between boys and girls, non-platonically. therefore if i wanted a girl that didn't want me, i'd be barking up the wrong tree. however, if i wanted a girl that was attracted to me, all i really needed to do was to sit back, and let things develop naturally. well, something like that, not much more or less.

and there my answer was. there's your answer, ian.

in short, you don't really want to be the one wanting. you want to be wanted. reciprocity would be ideal, of course.

so there. on a physical and spiritual level, problem solved.

God will provide someone who i want and who wants me. or else God will let me live all my life waiting. either is good enough for me.

all the expectations and all the whatever, i can live with.

it seems as if the physical often conflicts with the spiritual. the bible warns of this 'warring'. thank God i've got it figured out for now.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

VI - who cares what the answer is!

i have some questions that should be addressed. i hate to sound objective for something like this, and i'm not even sure it's the better approach. but just so i know i'm keeping myself honest. notwithstanding, the questions.

firstly, why do i want to get attached?

secondly, how does the answer to the first question square away with my life purpose, vision and mission?

thirdly, do i know which one i really want?

fourthly, is God gonna say no?

fifthly, what future do i see for myself and my attachee?

sixthly, am i ready to be attached?

seventhly, what's the hurry?

eightly, am i gonna be emo about it?

ninthly, given my track record, what makes me think i'm gonna succeed now?

tenthly, what'm i gonna do for her by being her attachor?

they say that sometimes asking a good question is better than giving a good answer. but that's also because a good question is hardly ever easy to answer off the top of your head.

i think i need to know the answers to these questions. i can roughly figure out most of it, and i suppose some need to be answered by trying, i.e. some answers are inchoate. but i believe that for the better questions, the answers aren't in my hands.

can i do this without really thinking long and hard about it? can i do this without being as well-prepared for it as i can be physically, mentally and spiritually? can i do this with what i have now? can i be better than this?

eleventhly, do i know what getting rejected again will be like?

God! who really asks these questions?