XXXVI - holidays can be bittersweet too

song of the week: 裘海正, 愛我的人和我愛的人
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nxWB2rmZ5E

honourable mention: john mayer, stop this train
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BTzNX5OMN4

boy hk is nice. and i may not show it, but i thought the company was great too. i'll probably always remember the girls and the one guy when i think of hk. :)

i actually learnt a lot of things. and wish i could say more sometimes. but i think of these things when i think of whether i should say these things: that every person has the right to dream; and i don't really want to impose or intrude.

i'm afraid the girls are kinda not used to me too. haha sigh. i tend to act cool sometimes lar. but like i say, at the end of the day, i really only want people to trust me. and i think i manage that.

wow. really got so many memories. a quick list - the cantonese, the trains, the currency, the roads, ymca, the harbour, roast goose, the streets, the subway/ street level distinction, dim sum, ocean park, drinking + hilarity, the venetian (omg), the peak, the open top bus, dim sum, 臭豆腐, milk tea, po lo pau, roast meats, airport madness.

i tell you what i regret not being able to say k: friend, i don't really know what's going on, but you have to think about letting it go. the day before, this was you in a microcosm: walking down the street next to her with your right shoelaces untied. maybe you know it, and you're choosing to ignore it, or maybe you don't even know it. i'm worried for you, man. if you think you can keep on, and maybe you won't ever trip, well, who knows. 

i'm trying to think maybe you know what you're doing, but man i'm worried for you. and the thing is you're so not independent. i wish you got a good buddy to talk this sort of thing with; i don't know you well enough to presume to tell you all these things.

and i wish the girls knew better; but i suppose they don't know what to do with you either.

that's you, man; i wish for your sake you'd grow up.

besides that, i realise that girls really worry alot about people they care for.

i really don't think i want someone to worry for me.

bittersweet can be so annoying. a really fun holiday, until i had to worry about stuff. let's hope i worry too much.

and let's hope i make a good godfather type.