song of the week: led zeppelin, rock n roll. catchy as classic hell.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FeJkDewhTEw
see also: kashmir
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hW_WLxseq0o
basically the song that led zep is most proud of. they sure don't make bands like they used to.
i find it funny that sometimes the most well-received songs are ones that the makers aren't the proudest of. for example, smoke on the water, sweet child of mine, stairway to heaven.
i hesitate to write about personal emo stuff because i don't like to be reminded of it. in fact, if i ignore it, it goes away. and i usually like to be stoic about this sort of thing. ineptly, shruggingly, stoic.
but what's the point of having a blog and not being ten kinds of emo?
went and smacked golf balls today. felt hell of good. fixing a swing isn't fun unless things click into place, and then it feels good. i actually prefer fixing this kind of thing by myself. i don't like coaches and i don't like people who give advice about technique. mainly because i'm observant enough and i know myself really well, i work from basics, i'm methodical, and i work hard. and partly because most people talk through their ass.
no. i'm too proud. but the first part is true. i really do like to fix things myself. it feels like a self-realisation journey, a mental process that leads to physical prowess through designed repetition. i like to make sense of how my body acts, i like to feel things work, forces play, limbs flow, mechanics operate. i like to feel it.
i like those moments when i realise what i'm doing wrong, and what i can do to fix it. i love those moments. it's kinda sad that sometimes the same thing creeps back in. but it's human of me, right. i mean, we'd all love to have perfect 'something', just pick up something and intuitively understand how to use it, and precisely when to use it. but that's not true in most cases. most people really do work like hell to make things look effortless. we can emulate them, but without individually grinding away at the basics and at the flaws and bad habits, we'll never be truly good, we'll never be able to apply our borrowed skills in varying scenarios.
one good thing about playing multiple sports, or being good at multiple things, is of course, stretching yourself in different ways. sometimes the same things i learn in one thing can be applied, with the necessary modifications, to allow a moderate degree of success in another thing. but the habits that develop for one thing also tend to become impediments to others. i like to leave something for awhile and come back and discover i'm still pretty good at it, but when i don't it's actually quite depressing. haha. but that's life.
"... you will be children of the most high, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. be merciful, just as your father is merciful." - i was thinking today why i don't go to church anymore. well, it's been on my mind for awhile. i mean, what kind of proper christian doesn't go to church? i love God, but i don't love church. in fact, i don't like it at all. church is to me one of the most uninspiring things that christians do. but still i wonder if i should faithfully, sheepishly (as in like a sheep, i.e. obediently), go. i want to give more. it feels like i'm asleep. not cold, just dormant.
and sometimes the thing that pops into my head is, why can't i find a girl to like that likes me? why can't things be so simple? why don't things happen the way they used to? and in the end, i find that these are uninteresting questions. i don't like to complain, and i don't think these questions are really worth reflecting on. i guess i just have less answers than questions.
school this semester has been terribly inane. i don't want to talk about it. i hope to get Bs, because i'll memorise the stuff. not terribly inspiring. my favourite part of the day is actually... reading a book for fifteen minutes before i lie down to sleep. sigh, i almost need more things to look forward to (stuff like, girls).
