http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afZPyBvuXPk
i once had a friend. his name was daniel.
i could not... put in words, what i thought of him.
his is the first great tragedy in my life; it may be the greatest, and the most tragic.
i unexpectedly found an email from him. perhaps he might mind me publishing these emails now. but he cannot protest. and i suspect he wouldn't.
Well i've been finding it hard to understand how i'm feeling too sometimes. Definitely blessed to hear what you said. Havent got down to reading the sermon tho.
Hit you again as things come
yo, island of dreams
i don't really know how you feel and i can't say much to reassure you, but i guess that's not why you're writing to me either.
basically, this is how i feel. i didn't think you were too strong in your opinion or in your speaking. in fact i think it's important that we think through things robustly and rigorously, and if there's a bit of feeling, then all the better for it. i don't believe you've been un-christlike, and i don't think anyone should apologise for being honest. in many ways, the truth speaks for itself, but i also do believe that the Word speaks for itself, i.e. that it often doesn't need us (i'm understating this point for comic effect, humour me).
as to humility, very often it finds us rather then we find it, i feel. often times i feel that a humble person is really simply a reserved, disingenuous person. but that's just me, i am suspicious of people who wear the humble mask.
i am as much on a journey to find true humility as you are. if i stumble and bash across the way, i make no apologies for it. i try to be humble as Christ was humble, and i try to be passionate as Christ was passionate.
here, i recently read some john wesley. see if you have the patience to go through his preface.
see especially paras 8-10 of the first part.
ian
Hey Ian,
So i've been reflecting on the things i've told you about God, especially since this recent time of suffering. I've apologized for sometimes dumping my thoughts on you? thanks for taking it.
but it's not just that. i've been reflecting further on, well further back things. y'know on how i think a lot churches are wrong and i've been saying a lot of challenging things? Well through this time, as i've been reading and praying about things i can see further that my approach to these things has not been very good either. I mean I still hold that God has very different plans from what most Churches teach right now, but I feel in many respects my approach to dealing with the differences has not been Christ-like. and you're one of the people who had been experiencing my un-Christ like approach to dealing with it? I mean looking back there are a lot of ways I've dealt with it badly. Like i definitely know i've been a lot less loving and merciful than i should have been. And that my life still had a lot of work to be done, much that is much more obvious now. and in that light i think i've said some things i should not have said?
I can't say I've got it down now of course, I'm still learning. but I wanted to apologize to you that it and pray that God would have guided you through my mistakes.
Heh I've also been learning about my imperfections of course. I'll not be perfect (in some senses) here but i do want to apologize for things i do wrong too. and be humble about it
yeah, so. also thankful that you're like 'no it's ok!' and have been here to visit and talk with me.
oh and so like the thing about fasting. i've never really meditated much on fasting so i''ve just throwing back ideas that i do meditate on as you tell me about it, praying that God speaks to you through it too.
Yupz
DanieL
(i hope that made sense)
